A letter from Ryan
April
23, 2014
“a woman came to him with an alabaster jar of
very expensive perfume, which she poured on his head as he was reclining at the
table.” Matthew 26:7
Dear Friends,
It seems like God uses the
season of Lent consistently to grow our faith.
Last year, God moved during this season to call KCB to the faith-growing
step of buying Margaret’s House and turning it into a family shelter. This year there’s been another faith
stretching call.
In late February a friend and former Bellflower Pastor, Moses
Chung, who is now the director of a church-planting and renewal agency based out of
Michigan, called Home Missions, called me out of the blue. Since November he had been looking for a team
member that could help him with the skills and gifts needed to help with the
implementation of some significant organizational culture and strategy changes
within this agency. He could not find
the right fit from among the applicants for the position, and he said the
Spirit had led him to ask me, “Is there any chance you would consider taking on
a role like this?” I had a quick
response. “No.” He said he thought I would be “a good candidate for the role” and asked if I would just look at the position
description over the weekend and call him if anything changed in my openness to
the idea. I told him politely that I
was “about 3%” interested and so while I was honored to be considered he better
continue his search elsewhere. “We are
living the dream here in Bellflower and it’s not likely that God would change
that.”
I was NOT looking, nor could I imagine applying for, any other role or assignment than the one that
God has had me on. It would be too
costly for us… We’ve lived our entire
married lives here in Bellflower, our family enjoys a depth of community with
you, the KCB board members, our co-workers, neighbors, and church, that not
many get to experience. We do “live the
dream”. Our daily lives are so FULL and
BLESSED with a wholistic experience of what it means to live as Kingdom people
with other followers of Jesus, beyond what we imagined or envisioned when we
started out our lives here. We are proud
and honored to be a part of a “tribe” of Jesus followers who consistently lay
down their agendas and priorities for the sake of God’s Kingdom priorities. We couldn’t imagine that God would want or
ask us to give this up.
You have to be careful when
you assume that God will not change His assignments. Since that “out of the blue” phone call, God
has been making it overwhelmingly (and at times painfully) clear to Rachel and
I through a series of “coincidental” dreams, conversations, “divine”
appointments, other circumstances, and prayerful discernment that He is calling
me to take this position that will require us to give up the “dream” and resign
from my role as Executive Director of KCB/OPHS/LH.
The story in Matthew 26 of
Mary anointing Jesus has been particularly poignant for Rachel and I in this
season of discernment. In the story,
Mary, out of her love for Jesus, extravagantly anoints Him with an alabaster
jar of perfume. This perfume was extremely
costly and valuable, a family heirloom, a source of comfort and security, and
she takes it and pours it all out in an expression of her love for Jesus. The disciples can’t understand this “wasteful”
expense. They have better ideas for how
this precious resource should have been used.
At a conference I attended in March, as we were just starting to discern
this call, one of the speakers taught on this text and asked pointedly, “What
is your alabaster jar of perfume? What
is it that you cling to for security and comfort? What do you tie your identity to? Would you pour even that out in an expression
of love for Jesus? Is Jesus better to
you than all of this?
Many secret tears have flowed
in these weeks as it became clear that God was in fact asking us to pour out
this offering of love and surrender our ideal life, community, church, home,
job, connections and influence in what feels at times like blind obedience,
trusting that he will provide for our family and for you all.
God used our 10 year
celebration to remind us of all that God has done, and will continue to do
amazing things through the ministry of KCB (OPHS and Little House) to advance His kingdom in Bellflower. From our
beginning we have professed that Jesus is the leader of this organization and I
am sure that He has the right person to fill the leadership role for KCB. KCB has worked because this organization is
HIS and because He uses you on a daily basis. Home Missions has said that it wants to
embrace missional approaches similar to the one that God has been doing in our midst, to help new and struggling churches and communities engage in similar work.
It has been an honor and
privilege to serve alongside you brothers and sisters who are radically
committed to this work and I am confident that “He who began a good work in you
will be faithful to complete it.” The
leadership at Home Missions has given a generous period of time (start date of
June 1) to ensure that we can carefully plan for my transition from the role as
Executive Director and I am committed to finishing well. I remain committed to KCB’s mission and
vision and want to help as much as you see fit during this season. Please feel free to contact me with any
questions as they come up.
Thank you for all of your
servant leadership and for allowing me the great privilege of serving as the
Executive Director over the last ten years.
I am confident our success has been due to our God’s great love for our
city and because KCB/OPHS/LH are HIS and He will continue to bless the work on
into the future.
To God be the Glory,
Ryan